Aw summer...no classes and lots of sleeping. Except for the occasional times when i have to work...Deposited some cash, installed subwoofer into car.. Planning on installing intake and the like... I can't wait for that mexican cruise. I better brush up on my spanish, it's been a while since i've used it. I hope the food is good. And hell yeah i'm going to drink, just after my parents go to sleep.. There are some clubs on the ship but i dunno how great it's going to be. Anyway, i'll post some more pictures here: I want to get some of the wildlife if i can...
- posted by Roth @ 5:31 PM

 
This is the first time i had a dream that i was kissing Sarah. Very wierd. Usually, i never had a dream about Sarah or anything. I don't know what it says. Anyway, things are really good with her. So i'm happy. We're close and if that's as close as i can be, than, i'll take it. But somehow, i'd like to see if things could happen. Only the future can tell me that. Anyway, my physics finals is coming up soon and i feel prepared. I went through all the old stuff and i think i can do it. Wish me luck.
- posted by Roth @ 8:46 AM

 
Done with that Bis 102 final...argh.. it was tough... I hope i passed, but i did do well for the most part. Why does everything have to be in some sort of haze. Like the girls i'm talking to, it's like i'm confused how they feel and that makes me feel like a player, which i'm not. Nanette, Sarah, Becky, and now Courtney. Okay, Courtney has a boyfriend. I know that. I won't do anything, it'll be up to her. In which i don't like be the "other guy". It's okay to think about doing, but not actually doing. PHysics Final tomorrow! Last one of my life! I like the time i spent with Sarah, and i do still like her. I mean today, she's getting a better idea of what kind of guy i am when all the girls were telling her what kind of guy i am. It's wierd but i also like her in the way that if we were kids, i'd love to play with her and run around trees playing tag and stuff. I guess that's the only way i can express it.
- posted by Roth @ 10:40 PM

 
Okay, so i don't believe becky any more. Saying all that stuff that she wanted to come over, hah. She gets off on teasing. That's fine with me, i'm not going to get played but her any more. At least, things are settled between me and her. Kim is happier too, things are settled with her. But she's being all holier than thou, and she's proud of it. Always comparing herself to Jesus. For those who don't know, i had made some mistakes with kim and becky. No i didn't cheat or used them. More like i ditched becky when i shouldn't and i never apologized to kim. But those things are fixed now. Actually things are going good with them. If anyone has made any mistakes, they have. So my karmic status is still green. Funny how kim stops calling me after having a boyfriend, i think that pretty much says everything.

Lots of fun this summer. Natalie, Jon, Jess and Mike are going be up here this summer! And i'm going on a mexican cruise. I'm trying to tell my parents that i want my own room and that i'd pay for it myself too. Not that i'd even imagining bringing someone back to my place but you know... you never know what happens... It gets quite lonely on the ship you know...hehe..
- posted by Roth @ 10:01 AM

 
You know what's funny? Courtney is dating some guy who looks like me except, he's shorter, a little pudgier and jealous as hell. Pretty funny when i met him, but i guess that's how things go. Anyway, things are going good with Sarah. I'm glad things are going good, i told her that if she wanted to study physics, she could. I told her i'd call her on saturday to see how things went. I asked her if she wanted to hang out before the summer and she thought about it and she said she'll see, so we'll see how that goes. If not, eh, it's okay. That's what i tell myself, anyway. Man, am i dark! Serious, i'm going to apply more sunblock, but sometimes you can't avoid it! Eh, what will this summer hold for me?
- posted by Roth @ 7:00 PM

 
So my birthday was sort of a bust, i mean, i didn't do much, sarah was still mad at me and my best friend and i just stayed in and played video games. Lame, i know... Then on monday, i saw the US men's team play Wales... Fun game, really. Mike's friend/girl he's interested was there too. It seemed like i was charming her too. She always kept talking to me and touching my arm and looking at me when i'm not looking. Hopefully not, but it was kinda cute. SHe's a cute girl, very sweet and all but i can't do that to mike. Sort of an honor code. Pretty much, she'd have to initiate it. Anyway, fast forward to Wednesday, May 28th. So i see sarah, and i say to myself, why don't i just say hi, can't hurt can't it? And so i do, and she gives me a "oh, hey" type thing, so i'm walking to class and she follows me and asks me how i'm doing. Now, for people who don't know about the sarah thing. Sarah had to told me to stay out of her life and basically ignored me and hated me all this time. However, she started to talk to me now. Anyway, i thought, maybe it was a fluke. So on friday, after spending almost all day on my lab report on thursday, i get to class kinda late doing my quiz. I finish early, and i'm waiting for sarah to maybe say hi and stuff. But i meet michelle, a cool filipino girl in my physics class, we do talk a bit and stuff, don't know if she has a boyfriend or not. But, i did my share of flirting, kinda tapped her bare leg lightly with my leg. She then asked me if i wanted to go to the silo, which i did, but i went later, with guess who? Sarah. Wierd, since when do girls start asking me to hang out with them? Anyway, so I meet sarah after class, i'm just talking to her and she asks me, what i'm doing now, and she asks if i want to go somewhere and talk and stuff. So i said sure, and we go to the siule to hang out and talk and we do, and she tells me everything, i guess she's beend dying to tell me and stell me about how we are working things out. Now, i'm ok but i dunno how she is. We did talk about hanging out sometime, like going to the batting cages and doing that whole mulder and scully type thing from "the unnatural" x files episode, and we are goign to study some physics together too. Things seems to be good, even saw her again at the bookstore, for the first time ever again. Anyway, so she leaves to go to office hours and i'm having problems with my laptop excel program, and so i ask the girl next to me, how do you do this? SHe comes over and starts trying to figure out what i need to do. she had no clue how to do it but she still tried to do it. She finally suceeded but it was something i could have done (all i had to do was go to help =P). Anyway, she asks me how my npb101L class is, and i'm like, how'd you know and she was like, it's right there. So we're talking and stuff, and how young she looks but she's actually 26.. She looks freaking 17. Anyway, so i tell her that i have to miss class so i can do this report and she asks me do i have someone to take notes for me and i say yeah, but her notes aren't that great. And she says to me, well i take great notes, i can show them to you after class on monday, and i'm like cool, i'll meet you up. And she leaves but then she passes me by and i actually beat her to it and i ask her what her name is and she asks for mine. I dunno, does it sound like a pickup? You make the call, could be just a friendly thing. She's way too cute for me, maybe she has kids.. I dunno what nanette is up to she keeps playing with my head. Too shy but hey, it's not like we're together together. So i'm not sure if she likes me or not but it's ok. I'm just going to make it clear to her that we could date but i'm not ready for a boyfriend girlfriend thing just yet. I want to make more of an intellectual connection with her, cuz it's really lacking there.

Maybe george constanza was on to something... but i have to thank those who got me here, and a bunch of praying, and a birthday wish that came true...
- posted by Roth @ 9:06 AM

 
Well tomorrow natalie's taking me out to dinner and salsa dancing! Woo, yeah it's going to be fun. So much work to do this week, but i'm sure i'll get it done. Jon's going to help me work out since, well, i guess i need it. I have to plan out a lot of things... I figure that every feeling i want to do, i do the opposite of. That way, things will work out... it's the george constanza theory, and i think it'll work..
- posted by Roth @ 1:47 PM